current state of mind
I got a new job. I’m not sure if I’m happy about it or not. Because this new job means a 20 mile commute (also in rush hour, compared to the now luxuriant 6 with almost no traffic) and getting 65 cents less/hour. To essentially be doing the same thing I already do, just for a better company (keep in mind it doesn’t pertain to what I see myself doing in the future unless you count the vague connection to theatre). The office is in the beautiful Fox Theatre. And I’m not sure what it means for hours, which is ridiculous, I should know the answer to that. But they know how many hours/week I’m looking for and they have no objections, so…that’s a positive? The pros: I really liked the manager I interviewed with (I’m awful with names—I’ve talked to him three times now and I still can’t get it down) as in he actually seems like a personable human being which is a huge step up from the infant ape I currently work for, I would get my schedule a couple weeks in advance unlike the two day heads up I now get, I’d be working for a company that’s all about live shows in our community rather than Hollywood crap, oh and I wouldn’t be required to work on Holidays (though—gasp—I’d be paid time and a half if I chose to work. Yeah, like a normal company), and what seems, at least from first impression, to be a much better work environment. The cons: I already said it. Less pay, more driving, still not pertaining to my future. But for a job, honestly, I like everything I know about it except for those two things. I don’t know if it was a mistake to accept it. All I know for sure is that I won’t be completely happy until I leave my current job to do something else. And maybe this is that something else. Even if it’s the same, but different. The same in ways I can handle and different in ways that I’m looking for. I’m going to keep my current job and work both for a couple weeks just to be sure, but I don’t really see this going any other way. A change of scene seems crucial. But I’m worried. But but but. Really I’m just over-analyzing and thinking out loud (so to speak) as I have been these past 24 hours. Seriously, you should hear all the back and forth my mind has been doing. It’d make you dizzy.
